Hei, this is December already... and Christmas in on the way...
how do you feel??
I am really waiting for a christmas gift from God.. Yes, I even can't say more about how much I really want that gift to come.. I am too afraid to think what would I be if I didn't get that gift...:(
you know?
I've been asking for that gift for almost 6 months.. hoping that God will make it true in this christmas or at least before my 22nd birthday..
I've been trying really hard to pursue that gift.. I was trying my best but the fact, I have ever failed a lot.. I don't know why.. I just simply conclude that maybe this is not God's will..
But when can I see that God's will???
I only have a hope that this christmas will be the best time for HIM to give me that beautiful gift...
We are on the third adventist already.. I want to deeply prepare my heart, for the best and the worse..
He knows the best what it is inside my heart.. I even don't have any suitable word to express my hope.. I wish HE is now also preparing for that moment..
too many tears I have..
too many dissapointment..
too little passion..
too little heart...
Will this christmas be beautiful, God??
Will I get my dream job??
with love,
lina
